UNFAIR

takdir hidup setiap org apsal laen2.nih persoalan yg slalu bb fikir.even mmg bb tau in fact hal nih akan jadi.

kalau stay sekejap perhatikan sekeliling.boley nmpk.ada org yg senang.ada yg susah.ada yg terlebey senang.ada yg terlebey susah.ada yg xda ape2.ada yg sederhana.

itu bru tgk luaran.blum lagi termasuk amek tau tentang masalah2 yg diorang hadapi.mcm happy ke tidak.bahagia ke tidak.tenang ke tidak.

kdg2 ngeri giler ckap psal life.omg.ngeri plus seram plus takut semua ada.bercampur-baur..

nih satu contoh.takdir yg unfair kpd baby nie.well bb xda lah nak blame or ape bila first time tgk pic nie.

just thinking.kat mane hati seorg ibu tuh kan.bila buat baby sndiri mcm nie.ape yg ada dlm mind mama dia masa amek keputusan tuk buang anak sndiri.

ok.Tuhan dah takdirkn jadi mcm ni.Dia lbih sygkan baby ni.itu fakta kalau ckp dari sudut agama laa.but now nak ckp dari sudut kemanusiaan plak.

kalau la bb tau sape mama baby nie.teringin juga nak jadi wartawan and go temuramah dia.how dare she do this to her baby.

apsal boley sanggup and tergamak.?nih sgt kejam.kejam and takde hati perut.

nak marah pon xder guna.bukan ley hidupkan nyawa baby ni back.sedih giler.. :(

naseb baek la bb ditakdirkan sempat utk lihat dunia.mean.takdelah kena buang mcm baby nih.

even my family serabut and celaru and kacau-bilau and huru-hara segala,but they still let me alive.

syukurlah.kalau bb ditakdirkan mcm baby ni.?apa agaknya akan jd.lagi ngeri plak nak pk.

tak sure pic nih diambil zaman bile.tahun bile.lets say tahun 2009.mean baby nih now dah nak masuk 2 tahun.

hurm.pity of her/him.taktau jantina aper..

mama dia xtau still idop lagi ke tak.aiyooo.tak rasa menyesal ke.

hrp bb akan terus jd org yg berperikemanusiaan.mean...xkan buat bnda mcm nie.Amin.

nih pun unfair kpd bdk nie.sgt buat hati taching everytime tgk pic nie.bb pun fham sgt how the feel bila diabaikan oleh parents or ditinggalkn.semua org tuh ada cerita about life msg2.yg happy.yg sad.

tapi sure tak seteruk mcm bdk ni.dia da sgt2 dlam kesusahan.kalau mcm kite.bila susah.still ada tempat nak pegi tuk tumpang makan minum.so at least takde lah kebuluran gile.but bb fham how it feel bila xdpat mkan dlam sehari dua.pena juga experienced situation mcm tuh.so much painful.nak nanges kalau ingat balik detik2 dlam kesusahan.time tu mmg rasa takdir unfair to me.tapi.life must go on.selagi mampu bersabar.sure boley hidup lg.

kalau tgk seimbas kat pic nie.sape2 sure akan ckp.dia anak yatim piatu.and maybe dah tak makan or minum dlam tempoh seminggu lebih sumting.?errr.andaian je secara mata kasar.tapi betul ke tak makan dlm tempoh itu.or in fact sbnarnya lbih dari seminggu tak makan?omg.so sad.. :(

dan dia still kuat sbab hidup lg.even usia dia still too young.kalau anak org laen.dlm umur yg masih kecil mcm dia,makan sedap2.cukup makan la pendek citer.

hurm.sume nih buat bb rasa bersyukur.dan hopefully.ley didik anak jd someone yg tau appreciate everything.dari sekecil-kecil hal smpai sebesar-bsar hal..Amin.

tapi mampu ke bb buat mcm tu.kat diri sndiri pon blum tentu boley appreciate everything.

tak salah cuba..

hidup ni semua org tau sgt singkat.masa tuh sgt cpat berlalu.then.bb nak krgkan buat sumting yg akan buat bb regret in future.

so far.setakat ni.takde lagi hal yg bb nyesal sgt.

im so lucky sbab slalu thinking before buat.

tp still jugak laa ada terbuat kesilapan also.yg tak sengaja.

everybody makes mistake.ni ayat slalu jmpa. :)

boley tak kalau takde sapa yg buat silap.?wujud ke org mcm tuh dlm dunia ni?

takde kowt.. :)

back to topic about budak ni.harap dia ley jd org yg berjaya in future.sbab dia da tau what it feel kalau susah.nobody will care.may God bless him.

ini part yg sgt2 ngeri.tak sure what happen with tgan die.and bb pun tak sure.laki2 or pompuan dlm pic nie.apa yg sume org tau.sure ini sgt2 sakit.azab gile.ouch.suddenly bb skali lg appreciate.sbab still ada tgan.and tgan berfungsi dgan baek.so mampu buat ape2 aktiviti harian.syukur..

pic ni so scary.jari putus.tgan hancur.boley ke tak eh repair balik.mcm tak je.tp bb bukan doctor.so xtau.just guess.hal mcm ni boley je terjadi.tak kira siapa.

punca jd mcm ni.accident ke xtau la..rasa mcm accident je.ouch.cmana lah mangsa ni tahan sakit.

then.cmana dia nak buat keje if dlam keadaan mcm ni.kalau pun tgan dia akan sembuh,but mesti susah jugak.aiyooo...

kalau bb yg bukan mangsa pon ley celaru nak pk.apa lg lah mangsa dlm pic nie.mesti die trauma.putus hrapan.down..sedih.kecewa.semua feel ada.

hrap dia akan ok.Amin.sakit sgt tue.. :(

yg nieeeeee.pic yg mmg buat semangat lemah semcm kalau tgk.

omg.tak dpt bygkan cmana sakitnyer.

kalau pic yg atas about tgan.yg nie part kaki plak.

kalau kaki takde or rosak.cmana diorang nak berjalan.cmana nak have fun.cmana nak buat aktiviti harian..

gosh...

kalau tgk seimbas.keadaan kaki mangsa nie.mcm mmg dah rosak teruk je.nak repair pun...hemmmm..

maybe kena potong kowt.entahlaaa.

hancur gile daa.

kalau trus arwah xper lg.tp nie still hidup.sure la merasa azab sakitnyer.

aaarrrggggghhhhhh.sedihnya.

luckily bb still ada kaki. :(

so bb still boley walking pegi mana2.have fun.

kaki tuh sgt penting.ah.bkan kaki je.sume2 anggota tubuh bdn sgt penting.kalau hilang one of them sure tak perfect hidup rasanyer..

takde mata cmna nak tgk dunia.takde telinga cmna nak dgar.takde tgan cmana nak buat keje.takde kaki cmna nak jalan.pendekkan citer.semua penting.

kena jaga dgan sebaiknya...

nanti kalau Tuhan tarik balik apa yg Dia bg.huuhu.takley nak kata aper da masa tu nanti...

kita gembira bila sempurna..and kita sure akan rasa so sad bila lost something..

terpulang kat diri sndiri nak jd happy or sad.selagi kita ley kawal situation.just appreciate apa yg ada.

takdir Tuhan kdg2 complicated nak fhm pun.dia bagi.pastu dia tarik balik.later Dia bagi lg.next Dia take back again.mcm tu la.give n take back.berulang kali..

painful kan.. :)

Dia berkuasa.semua tau tu...

tapi thanks la kpd Dia sbab let me alive lg. :)

DAMN. ITS TRUE!

omg.jam dah pukul 4am.sure ramai member2 yg dah tdo at this time.bb awal tdo today.10.30pm kowt smlam landing atas katil.demam.dah bape ari asyik mandi ujan.mane tak sakit.then bb terjaga kul 3am td.bila check lappy ada text dri faisal.lappy memang on je while im sleeping.what a good instinct i have.then kitorang chat kejap je.

well,last nite pegi stalk page 'teen diary'.and baca all the words yg mereka update time by time.

its funny dan sgat2 true. 

omg.

rupenyer bkan bb sorang je rasa some awkward moment.ramai lg kat luar sana feel the same! :)

dan ayat2 diorang sgt cute.motivation words yg comel also have. :)

dan sure something about love too.

terkena kat btg hidung sndiri pon ada.

bb copy paste mana2 yg menarik. 

::HERE IS IT::

"no one ever gets tired of loving. They just get tired of waiting, assuming, hearing lies, saying sorry and hurting."

"dear couples. the most beautiful line is "but, i love you.." The most painful line is "I love you,but.." see the difference?"

"i love getting one new message and seeing your name on the screen."

"saying "oh!" like you get it. But you still have no idea."

"it's unhealthy, just how much you're in my mind but i cant help it."

"texting the same person all day and all night and never getting tired of it, because you like them that much."

"choose the guy who will take you home to meet his parents, not his bedroom."

"some things are so awkward to say, but so easy to text."

"smiling at the computer like a creep while having an interesting conversation."

"the awkward moment, when you wait for a text, but then you realize you're the one who didn't reply."

"the awkward moment when your mom or dad asks you if you have a girlfriend/boyfriend."

"the most beautiful words a guy can tell their girl, "the next girl I'll ever love in this world will be our daughter."

"the awkward moment when you accidentally "like" something on facebook while you were stalking."

"what is love?

in math: a problem

in history: a war

in chemistry: a reaction

in art: a heart

in me: you :) "

"saying "never mind" when you dont feel like repeating yourself."

"that moment when you check your phone to see what time it is and then you check it again because you weren't paying attention the first time."

"i love my boyfriend so much!"

"how long have you been dating?"

"two days."

"you're an idiot!"

"stupid conversations make sense when you are talking to someone special."

"a lot of people talk about their relationship..Me? I like food."

"when i miss someone, I re-read our old conversations and smile like an idiot."

"i hate the feeling when you want to help, but there's nothing you can do."

"there's "hell" in "hello" and "good"  in "goodbye". that's why you shouldn't be afraid of "goodbye", but careful at "hello"......"

"your body makes you sexy. but your personality makes you sweet."

"that moment of joy when you find money in your pocket."

"every girl has her bestfriend, boyfriend, and true love. but you're really lucky if they're all the same person."

"i'm not ignoring you. im just waiting for you to talk to me first."

"i'm not single, i'm just in a long relationship with fun and freedom."

"the worst feeling is pretending you dont care about something, when really it's all you seem to think about."

"there are so many things i'd like to tell you, yet so many reasons why i can't."

"sending an important text, then being scared to open the reply."

"boys have a bad habit of letting go easily. girls have a bad habit of holding on for too long."

"dear parents, please stop comparing your generation too our generation."

"treat people as you would like to be treared. karma's only a bitch if you are."

"things i learned in school.

1.how to whisper.

2.how to text without looking.

3.how to look like i'm thinking."

"just when i thought i was completely over you, i saw you with her, causing all of my feelings to come back."

"we all have those funny inside jokes with our best friends that only we can understand."

"admit it. often, you fall in love with the most unexperted person at the most unexpected time."

" When I have money, I have nothing to buy. When I don’t have money, I want everything."

" I love the kid in class who asks the teacher stupid questions just to waste time."

" I wish I could go back to being a little kid, where the hardest decision in life was deciding what color pencil to use."

" Saying to you're friend "that's your boyfriend" when seeing an ugly guy on TV."

" Everyone has three lives: a public life, a private life, and a secret life."

" I would be kinda embarrassed if you would know what's on my mind. Because it's always you."

" Silence doesn't always mean yes. Sometimes it means I'm just tired of explaining to those who don't care to understand."

" You need to have a bad day every once in a while, otherwise, you'll never know what a good day feels like."

" If it takes you more than an hour to answer a text message I will assume that you're dead. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯"

" That moment when you can actually feel the pain in your chest from seeing or hearing something that breaks your heart."

" I’ve made a lot of mistakes. I’ve accidentally done a lot of things, but I never accidentally told someone I loved them when I didn't."

" Dear parents, you don't need to tell us to sleep earlier for school. Because no matter how many hours we sleep, we'll always feel sleepy."

STEP BACK

today.after dah berhabis-habisan fkir masak2.then finally i choose to step back from any serious relationship.

dah tak tahan nak pk.everytime terlibat dlam feel to someone,then my heart so in pain to think that we cant go on.even dah try nak think positive and hopeing for miracle.tapi.omg.

im done.enough la setakat today.let the time tell everything.

kalau jodoh ada,then we will meet up one day.

letih nak fikir hal2 yg complicated.sedihnya ckp cmni...

and i will not open my heart to everyone.byk bnda lg yg perlu bb fkirkan and seetle.terutama hal berkaitan family.selagi sume nih tak seetle.sampai bila2 pun bb takkan rasa bahagia.

kalau laa miracle happen one day.

impossible lah maybe.yeah.family matter yg sampai bile2 takkan berubah.

tentang lelaki yg bb pena syg before.diorang akan still stay in my heart.walaupn kdg2 bb rindu giler kat diorang but in fact bb dah let them go.takkan berharap utk in relationship back lg.

kalau lah boley explain.how pain bila teringat kat diorang.omg.sedih sgt2...

takdir Tuhan la kan.kdg2 buat bb rasa sakit hati.tp in fact bb still accept dan redha.

tipu lah kalau langsung tak bg kesan di hati.

org keluar masuk dari hidup bb.sure la bb akan ingat smpai mati.melainkan kalau ditakdirkan lupa ingatan.

terfikir juga.link between us.mesti msg2 sakit hati.eim.yaya.bb.deala.honey.

nak buat cmana kan.perasaan yg dtg tuh tak kita jangka.suke ati je dtg.

hrap2 xda yg sakit hati dgn bb.dgan link yg ada nih.sbab bb pun tak sengaja.nak termasuk dlam story nie.

memang tak jangka langsung pon.

nak betulkan keadaan balik pon mmg tak dapat la.bukan mcm filem jay chou boley rewind balik story n perbetulkan keadaan pakai teknik rebound..

tapi.realiti.wujud ke rebound tuh?laaa.

tibe2 terfikir psal tu plak.kalau boley.sure bb akan belajar cmana nak buat rebound.

and will rewind every kesalahan and perbetulkan keadaan..

today.ada bdk2 comel stay by my side.taktau anak sape.tetiber je dia dtg n ckp2 with me.omg.so cute.

bb pun layan je bdk tu.umur dia maybe around 4 years old.dia ckp chinese tp entah ape yg dia ckp.bb tak fham.just bg respon to her.haih.lemah semangat tgk bdk2.rasa tak sabar nak ada baby sndiri.

today also.ada sorang lg bdk kecil.around 4 or 5 years old..dia lambai tgan to me.omg.....so cute gile..

bb pun jadi tak keruan tgk bdk tue.eee..comel.boley plak peramah kat bb.

omg.omg...taching...

hope one day sempat kawen,sempat lahirkan baby before mati.

nak jugak rasa moment jadi mama to my baby with husband.

tapi sapa future husband.?tak nmpak any sign lagi plak.

hal nie.mcm yg bb slalu ckp.bila tiba masanya.ade la tue.. :)

let the time tell everything...ayat sesuai tuk di guna pakai.. 

honestly.bb tak selesa sgt bila laki2 yg bb suka talk about his ex-gf.entahlah.memang tau ramai gak pompuan tak suka.tapi bb mcm pretend tumpukan perhatian like berminat nk dgar.padahal dlam hati... 

"omg.please stop the story".nak je ckp cmtu.but.tahan je.

memang naturally ada rasa tak selesa di hati kalau diorang ungkit psal ex-gf msg2.bb taktau napa.am i jealous.?takde la jealous.cuma tu laa...tak selesa.

tp sumtime tuh.mmg berminat gak nak amek tau psal ex-gf diorang.nih buang tabiat namanya.kejap ckp tak selesa.kejap ckp berminat.

entahlaa.mood random dtg2.kdg2 boley accept.kdg2 tak.

byk lagi topik boley sembang.but why psal ex-gf jugak nak ckp.yelaa.

bb pun pena juga terckp psal ex.tapi just crita how we met.dah kebetulan plak tertulis psal ex.suddenly bb teringat my ex.cmana life dia skrg dgn girl baru.happy tak.bahagia tak.bila diorang nak kawen.

wujud ke percintaan skali je dlam hidup and akan berakhir dgn perkahwinan.mean.bercinta sekali je seumur hidup.takde lah smpai bercinta byk kali.

kalau ada.bgus nyer laaa.

so kita akan happy je.

tapi betul ke akan happy? :)

so nampak gaya nyer mmg in fact kena bercinta byk kali.couple n break up.and couple again and clash lagi..

LOL..haih..sbnarnya bb pun x fham nak ckp ape.

aper yg paling penting skali skrg.doakan kebahagiaan org2 yg bb pena kenal.lbih2 lagi org yg bb syg.

family.kawan2.ex.musuh.

:)

step back dari melibatkan diri dgn kes berkaitan hati.tired~