PUZZLE OF MY HEART

cmana sbnarnya nak start to serious relationship.like everyone does.i've no an idea.

bb nak sgt ada someone yg boley take care of me.but where can i find him.abad bila.how long bb kena wait.

ada tak laki mcm tuh.

cmana sbnarnya nak tau if someone tuh btul2 serious with me.bkan setakat jdkan bb salah satu girl yg dia nak flirt with.

taknak someone yg just come n go and come n go again..xnak someone yg just nak breaking my heart..

xnak someone yg love many girls in one time..

bb xnak someone yg just nak enjoy.

xnak someone yg suke confuse.xnak someone yg always hide.

bb slalu jd girl yg very faith even psgn bb flirt.the reason?sbab bb tak reti nak flirt with org laen.

memang ske serius with one man only in one time.

bb tak suka mainkan hati org.

i just want a honest relationship.fill with true love.tgk org laen mcm hepy je hbgn diorang.

bkan xda laki2 yg come into my heart.

tapi.most of them.takley kekal dgan bb lama.they came n go dgn cpat.

cmana bb nak try to accept them.kalau dah terang2 nmpk yg diorang xda ciri2 yg sepatutnya.

bkan nak perfect.just kalau boley.nak bf yg ada ciri2 as a future husband.

takpelah.mungkin bkan masanya lg.takley nak blame ape2.

tak nmpak sign lg about my future husband.bb tak retilah nak relationship yg sekadar for fun.

faisal pena ckp.dia tgk bb mcm takley commit in relationship.arinih ske org laen.esok ske org laen.

dia pun silap nilai bb.kalau lah dia tau.cmana serius gile bb kalau jd gf org.haih...

xpalah.bkn salah dia ckp cmtu.msg2 tak knal dgn mendlm lg.

serious faisal dah win touched my heart.tpi.bb..

arrrgghhhh.

why we cant go on.damn..

jodoh faisal dgan pompuan laen kowt.

sometimes.slalu jugak terkecil hati.tp bb serahkn pada jodoh.ape akan jd lpas nie.huh.sedihnya ckp mcm nie.

faisal pun ada girl yg he love so much.bb even rasa a little bit jealous tpi still hopeing dat girl will come to faisal.and diorang hidup together.

apsal lah jd mcm ni crita kami.............................................................................

skrg.bb taknak bg komitmen to any serious relationship.tggu bila ada someone yg betul2 prove that he want me.nak bb jd future wife dia.stay susah senang with him..

hah.time tuh baru laa bb akan buka hati nie back.cukup2 lah what happened in previous.

setakat nih.faisal yg bb rasa preety ok.tpi.....

hemm.complicated je.

faisal tau cmana nak amek ati bb.tau cmana nak handle bb.and setiap kali dia luahkan perasaan ke.bb rasa very touched.so happy.tapi bb xtau sejauh mana dia serius said that.

hati laki2 nih susah nak tafsir sgt.kdg2 kita boley baca apa yg ada dlm mind diorang.tpi kdg2.susah gile nak fham diorang.

then bb pun.terfikir.perlu ke nak tggu sesuatu yg kita tak sure.mcm nak tggu bintang jatuh dri langit je.

ah...xpelaaa.

asyik ckp "xpe2".tapi dalam my mind.bb slalu terfikirkan die.damn.faisal da buat ape je kat bb nih.

mentang2 hati bb lembut.cepat taching with sumting yg mengharukan..

kdg2 ckp soal hati nih rasa klakar pulak.biar betul bb tgah tulis psal hati. :)))

semua org perlukan psgan.haih.ngerinya pk psal laki2.

FORGIVENESS

tibe2 plak teringat satu2 kesalahan yg pena bb buat in previous.yg sengaja or tak sengaja.

bb byk sakitkan hati some peoples.yang kdg2 bb pun xfhm napa.

harap2 diorang tak simpan dlm hati.kalau tak.bb akan rasa guilty sepanjang hayat.

masa tuh bb sgt young.still tak matang.kdg2 random je cakap lepas.

perangai bdk2...

well.zaman2 sekolah dulu...bb sgt panas baran.takley kawal.

apa2 je,mesti nak naek angin.asyik2 gaduh je keje.pergghh.mcm bodoh je kalau ingat balik perangai lama.

naseb baek manusia tuh berubah.

bb pun skrg tau nak kawal keadaan.panas baran pun dah di tahap yg terkawal...

boley ke tebus setiap kesalahan2 yg bb lakukan.

arrgghhhh.

tak faham dgn diri sndiri.

UNEXPECTED FRIEND

baru je balik dri darus cafe.lepak dgan deala n her bf.diorang pick up bb at my home kul 12 mlm td.2.30am baru gerak blik.diorang hantar bb first.

bb tak pena expert that this friendship between me n deala would be this sweet thing.

suddenly we become more closer.naturally. :)

everything is possible.bb tau that.

kitorang da lama knal.kitorang knal thru link la.mean.kami msg2 rapat with someone.

who care about cmana we met.yg penting cmana kita berkwn and continue the relationship n take care of it..

09.09.2011.deala invited bb pegi event open house at her house.so bb pegi with my one of my friend.

dpat la knal2 dgan some of her friends.

kul 11 lbih mlm kowt smpai umah deala.kitorang lepak umah dia until 4.30 pagi. makan2.sembang2.

play "bullshit" game.yeah.what a good moment.

cmana laa Tuhan ley create takdir cmni.bb pun x expert.:)

thanks.

bb ada la jugak tangkap gambar dgn diorang2.with deala also.

one of the pic....yg bb rasa nice bb buat wallpaper henset.hehe.nanti2 nak lagi tangkap pic byk2.

manatau someday kita berpisah n xjmpa lg.at least the pic of us still ada.

yelaa.peoples come n go.nih kenyataan yg tak pena berubah.

oleh sbab mlm tuh mcm keletihan yg amat sgt,so bb x begitu rajin nak bergambar byk2.sikit pun takpe yg penting ader la jugak kenangan.

terperasan plak tibe2.apsal bb nmpak mcm gegurl yg feminin mlm itu ye.?ahaaa.

even bb nih pompuan,but my character still tak sepenuhnya a woman lg.take time.

hopefully xda sapa nilai bb dari dressup or ape2 je laaa.

sbab bb boley bertukar watak anytime.and nobody can expert what i can be.

jgn nilai even melalui pic also.ilusi pic yg ske tipu.gosh.

really enjoyed spent time with deala and her friends.hopefully ley lepak2 random lg.