STEP BACK

today.after dah berhabis-habisan fkir masak2.then finally i choose to step back from any serious relationship.

dah tak tahan nak pk.everytime terlibat dlam feel to someone,then my heart so in pain to think that we cant go on.even dah try nak think positive and hopeing for miracle.tapi.omg.

im done.enough la setakat today.let the time tell everything.

kalau jodoh ada,then we will meet up one day.

letih nak fikir hal2 yg complicated.sedihnya ckp cmni...

and i will not open my heart to everyone.byk bnda lg yg perlu bb fkirkan and seetle.terutama hal berkaitan family.selagi sume nih tak seetle.sampai bila2 pun bb takkan rasa bahagia.

kalau laa miracle happen one day.

impossible lah maybe.yeah.family matter yg sampai bile2 takkan berubah.

tentang lelaki yg bb pena syg before.diorang akan still stay in my heart.walaupn kdg2 bb rindu giler kat diorang but in fact bb dah let them go.takkan berharap utk in relationship back lg.

kalau lah boley explain.how pain bila teringat kat diorang.omg.sedih sgt2...

takdir Tuhan la kan.kdg2 buat bb rasa sakit hati.tp in fact bb still accept dan redha.

tipu lah kalau langsung tak bg kesan di hati.

org keluar masuk dari hidup bb.sure la bb akan ingat smpai mati.melainkan kalau ditakdirkan lupa ingatan.

terfikir juga.link between us.mesti msg2 sakit hati.eim.yaya.bb.deala.honey.

nak buat cmana kan.perasaan yg dtg tuh tak kita jangka.suke ati je dtg.

hrap2 xda yg sakit hati dgn bb.dgan link yg ada nih.sbab bb pun tak sengaja.nak termasuk dlam story nie.

memang tak jangka langsung pon.

nak betulkan keadaan balik pon mmg tak dapat la.bukan mcm filem jay chou boley rewind balik story n perbetulkan keadaan pakai teknik rebound..

tapi.realiti.wujud ke rebound tuh?laaa.

tibe2 terfikir psal tu plak.kalau boley.sure bb akan belajar cmana nak buat rebound.

and will rewind every kesalahan and perbetulkan keadaan..

today.ada bdk2 comel stay by my side.taktau anak sape.tetiber je dia dtg n ckp2 with me.omg.so cute.

bb pun layan je bdk tu.umur dia maybe around 4 years old.dia ckp chinese tp entah ape yg dia ckp.bb tak fham.just bg respon to her.haih.lemah semangat tgk bdk2.rasa tak sabar nak ada baby sndiri.

today also.ada sorang lg bdk kecil.around 4 or 5 years old..dia lambai tgan to me.omg.....so cute gile..

bb pun jadi tak keruan tgk bdk tue.eee..comel.boley plak peramah kat bb.

omg.omg...taching...

hope one day sempat kawen,sempat lahirkan baby before mati.

nak jugak rasa moment jadi mama to my baby with husband.

tapi sapa future husband.?tak nmpak any sign lagi plak.

hal nie.mcm yg bb slalu ckp.bila tiba masanya.ade la tue.. :)

let the time tell everything...ayat sesuai tuk di guna pakai.. 

honestly.bb tak selesa sgt bila laki2 yg bb suka talk about his ex-gf.entahlah.memang tau ramai gak pompuan tak suka.tapi bb mcm pretend tumpukan perhatian like berminat nk dgar.padahal dlam hati... 

"omg.please stop the story".nak je ckp cmtu.but.tahan je.

memang naturally ada rasa tak selesa di hati kalau diorang ungkit psal ex-gf msg2.bb taktau napa.am i jealous.?takde la jealous.cuma tu laa...tak selesa.

tp sumtime tuh.mmg berminat gak nak amek tau psal ex-gf diorang.nih buang tabiat namanya.kejap ckp tak selesa.kejap ckp berminat.

entahlaa.mood random dtg2.kdg2 boley accept.kdg2 tak.

byk lagi topik boley sembang.but why psal ex-gf jugak nak ckp.yelaa.

bb pun pena juga terckp psal ex.tapi just crita how we met.dah kebetulan plak tertulis psal ex.suddenly bb teringat my ex.cmana life dia skrg dgn girl baru.happy tak.bahagia tak.bila diorang nak kawen.

wujud ke percintaan skali je dlam hidup and akan berakhir dgn perkahwinan.mean.bercinta sekali je seumur hidup.takde lah smpai bercinta byk kali.

kalau ada.bgus nyer laaa.

so kita akan happy je.

tapi betul ke akan happy? :)

so nampak gaya nyer mmg in fact kena bercinta byk kali.couple n break up.and couple again and clash lagi..

LOL..haih..sbnarnya bb pun x fham nak ckp ape.

aper yg paling penting skali skrg.doakan kebahagiaan org2 yg bb pena kenal.lbih2 lagi org yg bb syg.

family.kawan2.ex.musuh.

:)

step back dari melibatkan diri dgn kes berkaitan hati.tired~